Oh, well, yes, it was true in the end that I was quitting my job and was going for a walk to the other side of the ocean... Oh, my!
I can imagine what a the revelation it must have been for Albert Camus to reach the conclusion that "Life is the sum of all your decisions". It seems simple and the truth is that he didn't discovered the world with it, but it has taken me 33 years to be actually conscious of what it really means. But thanks God, cause there are many who leave this world, sad and frustrated, without ever understanding it.
Without even giving it a thought, we tend to accept our life submissively as the inevitable consequence of our environment's (others') decisions, expectations and circumstances. We feel ourselves as the capricious life's puppets, with its swinging, its come's and go's, before which we have no voice nor vote. I have spent twenty-something years moaning about my "unfair" life; curious, considering how fortunate and lucky I am. As we say in Spain, I have a big flower in my bum (my lucky star is always shinning!). However, in spite of it, I always preferred to muffle myself up with the shit I was covering my eyes with... perverse mind.
To be honest, I think EVERYTHING in life happens because of a reason and what is worse (or better, I would say) is that most of what happens to us is a pure consequence of our own decisions (of action or inaction). The "unfair" life I was moaning about, I was cooking it just myself, unaware of it.
So, the time has come for me to say "bye, bye" to my submissive and passive attitude and focus on watering my flower and creating the life I want for myself. Goodbye to a job that does not enrich me and head first to what really fulfills me, no matter what it takes (Oh, yeah!). Although, I know, it won't take much, I just know... hehe, yes, optimism stays with me!
Backpacking now till the end of the year, open to whatever Life brings me around Latinamerica. And from January on... much more and much better!! :)
I can imagine what a the revelation it must have been for Albert Camus to reach the conclusion that "Life is the sum of all your decisions". It seems simple and the truth is that he didn't discovered the world with it, but it has taken me 33 years to be actually conscious of what it really means. But thanks God, cause there are many who leave this world, sad and frustrated, without ever understanding it.
Without even giving it a thought, we tend to accept our life submissively as the inevitable consequence of our environment's (others') decisions, expectations and circumstances. We feel ourselves as the capricious life's puppets, with its swinging, its come's and go's, before which we have no voice nor vote. I have spent twenty-something years moaning about my "unfair" life; curious, considering how fortunate and lucky I am. As we say in Spain, I have a big flower in my bum (my lucky star is always shinning!). However, in spite of it, I always preferred to muffle myself up with the shit I was covering my eyes with... perverse mind.
To be honest, I think EVERYTHING in life happens because of a reason and what is worse (or better, I would say) is that most of what happens to us is a pure consequence of our own decisions (of action or inaction). The "unfair" life I was moaning about, I was cooking it just myself, unaware of it.
So, the time has come for me to say "bye, bye" to my submissive and passive attitude and focus on watering my flower and creating the life I want for myself. Goodbye to a job that does not enrich me and head first to what really fulfills me, no matter what it takes (Oh, yeah!). Although, I know, it won't take much, I just know... hehe, yes, optimism stays with me!
Backpacking now till the end of the year, open to whatever Life brings me around Latinamerica. And from January on... much more and much better!! :)
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